At
last! I’m blessed
I’m going to admit, I’m not
really contented with my life before. I really want to have things like that or
this, but now it is just now that I’ve got my biggest blessing and lessons. I
really prayed to God to help me feel this satisfaction in life. It is difficult
to me maybe because I’m a part of a broken family and that made me feel sad but
now, at least now, I realized something. Finally!
You know that this last August 3 and
4 is the schedule of the University of the Philippines College Admission Test
or the UPCAT. I felt so nervous of course because I really want to study in
that prestigious school. After the exam, I’m worried if ever I’m going to pass
the exam but I realized. I realized this.
When I’m texting one of my classmates
(who also took the exam on the same day and that is August 3) he asked me what
I did, how time pressure killed us then he said, almost all his answers are
based on his own theory. Then I typed this one, “Now I realized that it is not
always important to just use your brain during that exam, you need to use your
heart and the power of prayer in answering the questions.” You know what, I’m
shocked. I was appalled by what I said. It was like God let me realize that He
is always there for me, whenever I need him. At first actually, I’m very
worried because I don’t know if I’m going to pass that test (there are approx.
84 000 people who took the exam and because of that, the cut-off will be
higher) but after that, I realized that it is just okay if I’m going to pass or
not. I realized that I should be happy because I realized something. I also
gained lots of self-confidence. I learned how to believe in myself. You need to
trust yourself in order to make yourself satisfied.
I also realized how important people to me,
those people who supported me in the exam (to my father though he’s not there
he still sent me his support and to my mother who accompanied and waited me for
5 hours), it is just that I feel so blessed that there are always there for me
whenever I need them (huhu I’m crying now), though they are separated, their
love and care for me are inseparable and that made me feel so happy, so
blessed.
Lastly,
I made a stronger bond with God. I prayed a lot, not just before exam, but even
months before the exam and even during the exam. I felt him so much and I’m so
blessed. I’m so happy that he helped me and he continues to help me. What am I feeling now? I feel so
happy and contented now, though I don’t have enough clothes or money to buy
what I want. I feel the way I need to feel. I feel so blessed. Now I’m blessed
and that is the lesson I learned from the UPCAT.
Be True, ALWAYS- Ricka Mae