How difficult it was to move on?

I really contradict the people’s idea that moving on is just applicable to those people who had been in a relationship but I gotta say no it is not. As long as you loved someone, then he/she doesn’t love you back, well I can say that it is a choice for you to move on.

 

It really sounds crazy right now but I’m writing this blog post in front of the person I fell in love (but also hate). He’s lying over there, resting. But I came up to this point that I should really give up on him. He placed me through lots difficulties and heartaches. But I’m doing this again. I hope I can say that now I completely moved on, but I guess that’s just too hard for me to say that it is official.

WHY DO PEOPLE FEEL THE NEED TO MOVE ON?

It is because we want to keep on moving forward. We want to look for something that will make our life a lot more interesting, than being stuck in misery. Like the reason why we’re studying, we study because we want to get a job in the future that will help us to pursue our dreams and that will live our families. We want to grow old, and die in happiness.

And now in love, we want to keep on moving forward because we feel the need to be happy, to be satisfied and have a settlement in the future. Love is not something we need to get hesitate with, although sometimes we are getting confused at the start. Once you confirmed that if that is love, well there is no need for you to be unsure at all. It is something you need to look up to, something you need to face, and something you need to confess. Because once you get afraid on saying what you truly feel for the particular person, it’ll break you into tiny pieces.

BUT EVEN THOUGH WE LIKE IT OR NOT, MOVING ON IS REALLY EASY SAID THAN DONE. 

We make or we break

(HOW TO DEAL WITH THE MOTIVATIONS WE LOST)

We humans, compete in so many ways. We compete for a contest, with our classmates, in love, in life. We’re competing not because we want to get the worst outcome; we’re competing because we want to make good things happen. We’re not those little kids anymore, who may either cry or not when they loss or win in a specific contest. We’re teenagers who’re trying to figure out what we are and what we want to be in the next few years of our life as an adult.

As a fourth year student, I feel the need to make my life something worthy. Since my parents got separated, I never loved myself. I’m giving more love to the things where I want to be good with. I can still remember my grade school years where I want to make good grades ONLY because I thought that will be the best way to overcome the loneliness that I feel.

As of now, high school made me realize that if you want to be happy, you need to know who you are, what you’re capable of and the things that do not oppose what you feel. I’m going to admit that until now, I’m still having a bit of my identity crisis, but at least I could distract myself to get away from that. Well now my only problem is how to make thing right for me with a right motivation.

Having a motivation can be the biggest pleasure you can feel whenever you want to be successful in a place where you know you don’t excel well. But I realized that providing yourself a motivation can either be like this, it can build you or it can destroy you.

When you have a dream, you’re going to be desperate making it, because you think that you’ll be happy with the success you’re going to get. Our motivation becomes a part of our dreams, and of course, you have this urge for that motivation to feel the same way as yours. Let’s just say that you’re motivation is a person. He/ She became your dream, but what if he/she doesn’t want you to be a part of your dream? What if it happens to you?

How not to be a victim of wrong love 101

(Here's another WTH entry! Hope you enjoy it)

I’m one of those people who always wanted to feel love. I really don’t know the very particular reason but it is maybe because of the lacking of love that I’m feeling since my parents are not around with me. I know that it is quite wrong, to look for love in such a young age, but still, if you feel the lack of love, then you’re the one who’s going to look for it.

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Love brought me blessings

LOVE BROUGHT ME BLESSINGS…

Before you start, there is a little bit of reminder. As you know, I’m still not sure if I already know love so the love that I’m referring to this entry is what I’m feeling.

Like I said before, my true love had never gone by and I don’t consider anything I feel as true love ‘coz I’m just a teenage girl. But now let’s set aside it a bit. Well, like I also said before, I really envy those people who can balance both love and studies but a thing never came up to my mind, that I also can do that.

             

Well maybe if someone knows me reads this; he or she might say that “What is she saying? She doesn’t even have a boyfriend.” Well that is not the thing that I’m talking about. YES! It is true that I never had a boyfriend but there is just someone who motivated me, who changed my mind and it may sound as cliché as cliché but that person brought me back to the right path.

            

Like I said in my entry about happiness, he’s particularly annoying, sometimes you’re going to say ‘who the heck are you?’ Well yeah and it actually became severed because of certain reasons.

At actually the middle part, I told myself that I really don’t want him anymore because:

Unintentional Liars

Unintentional Liars

Back when I was a kid, I can always hear from every adult that surrounds me or even in television that imagining things are really good because that can exercise the brain. I can say that it is somehow true. But most of the things that we were imagining are no coming true. We were saying that someday me and him are going to be together, but you’re actually not because he never liked you are just making things out of him in your own mind. You keep on thinking that you’ll have your very own family with your boyfriend or girlfriend now but one day you’re the one who is going to break up. Imagining things can usually lead to disappointments, because it is the same thing as expectations. 

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HIDDEN FEELINGS

HIDDEN FEELINGS

            Protecting your own feelings from being known, leaving all those motives behind is an attitude that is not very considerable. You hover from the brink of something. You left someone with a huge question on her mind.

            On the other hand, you’re also asking to yourself question why? Why are you too afraid to say that you want him, that you really want to be with him?

            People are getting afraid to say what they feel since they’re scared to feel the kind of shame. Hence, they are now just stealing the happiness by imagining things which aren’t considerable and far from reality.

            Once people come to know love, they try to find it the way they wanted to, the way where their command will be on their own, where no one wanted someone to hinder their way in getting the love that they wanted.

            However, due to this kind of thinking, people will indirectly unveil that the love that they are wanting is forced. The love that they want to have is not real, but it is just because they wanted to be with someone who he knows he can face to his parents, to his friends due to high profile and money.

            Many people today think that they need to find love, but they didn’t know that love is the one who’s going to find them, that love will be the on the right place, at the right time.

            However, some feelings are just wasted since they are covered with piles of blocks. They didn’t want to let the person that they wanted to know what they truly feel.

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EXPECTATIONS

EXPECTATIONS

             

             Every human has their own expectations. It fuel ourselves and pursue to the dream you wanted to be. It opens us to a life where you started in just a dream and ended up with reality.

             

            However, if we didn’t succeed with our expectations, it’ll cripple us. They will pull you down until you fall. Therefore, if you have expectations, you’re on the brink of something. There are only two options, to fall down, or go to the safer way behind you, where you need to go back and give up.

           
               Motives also let us expect so they are also the biggest liars in life, especially in love. If we let ourselves be eaten by the motives that can give us happiness, you’re totally jeopardizing yourself into something that is not in the good outcome. Motives may come up into two, they like you or not.

Wanna be hurt?

The Pain

            If you are going to visit all my entry blogs in the blog archive, you can notice that almost all of my entries are dramatic. It’s really dramatic. I don’t know why. Maybe because it is true that teenage years are the parts where almost all of us get confuse. We’re confused about love, family, and friends. But that is just my introduction it is not about the topic that I trying to go through. Hihi I’m such a dork.

            Sometimes, we just want to be hurt. We want to hurt our body physically, emotionally and mentally just because we want to experience how does it feel and how you can overcome it. Of course, most of us don’t want to be hurt. We always want to be happy but remember, you’re not going to experience what happiness is if you’re not going to experience how it feels to be sad. That’s a cliché already all of us know but it is really important.

Happiness!!

HAPPINESS

            To be true, I’m really happy now. It is not because of the fact that there is something wrong that happened to my enemy. No! Absolutely not! I’m just happy because I’m in love.

            I know that I already told this a long time ago. But this one is not because I stole someone from somebody. NO! God let this happened and I’m so happy that I was able to found him.

At Last! I'm Blessed

At last! I’m blessed

            I’m going to admit, I’m not really contented with my life before. I really want to have things like that or this, but now it is just now that I’ve got my biggest blessing and lessons. I really prayed to God to help me feel this satisfaction in life. It is difficult to me maybe because I’m a part of a broken family and that made me feel sad but now, at least now, I realized something. Finally!

            You know that this last August 3 and 4 is the schedule of the University of the Philippines College Admission Test or the UPCAT. I felt so nervous of course because I really want to study in that prestigious school. After the exam, I’m worried if ever I’m going to pass the exam but I realized. I realized this.

            When I’m texting one of my classmates (who also took the exam on the same day and that is August 3) he asked me what I did, how time pressure killed us then he said, almost all his answers are based on his own theory. Then I typed this one, “Now I realized that it is not always important to just use your brain during that exam, you need to use your heart and the power of prayer in answering the questions.” You know what, I’m shocked. I was appalled by what I said. It was like God let me realize that He is always there for me, whenever I need him. At first actually, I’m very worried because I don’t know if I’m going to pass that test (there are approx. 84 000 people who took the exam and because of that, the cut-off will be higher) but after that, I realized that it is just okay if I’m going to pass or not. I realized that I should be happy because I realized something. I also gained lots of self-confidence. I learned how to believe in myself. You need to trust yourself in order to make yourself satisfied.

 I also realized how important people to me, those people who supported me in the exam (to my father though he’s not there he still sent me his support and to my mother who accompanied and waited me for 5 hours), it is just that I feel so blessed that there are always there for me whenever I need them (huhu I’m crying now), though they are separated, their love and care for me are inseparable and that made me feel so happy, so blessed.

Lastly, I made a stronger bond with God. I prayed a lot, not just before exam, but even months before the exam and even during the exam. I felt him so much and I’m so blessed. I’m so happy that he helped me and he continues to help me. What am I feeling now? I feel so happy and contented now, though I don’t have enough clothes or money to buy what I want. I feel the way I need to feel. I feel so blessed. Now I’m blessed and that is the lesson I learned from the UPCAT.

Be True, ALWAYS- Ricka Mae

HOW NOT TO KILL YOURSELF DUE TO HATRED 101

How not to kill yourself due to hatred 101

               

This is just a little bit something for the things that I experienced recently.

LOVE AND HATRED CAN BE THE MOST RISKY FEELING. Both of them are actually related. Why? "The moment people come to know love, they run the risk of carrying hate”. We all know that all the people in this world are experiencing love, from families, to friends, to their special someone. But when we lose one of these people, you can’t even say NO that you’ve never been angry to them because they left you. You can’t deny, maybe you can deny with other people but you can’t deny it with yourself. Of course when you hate, you’re going to have almost all the negative attitudes that are possible. So how was it? How to prevent it? Not to say prevent but how not to kill yourself due to hatred.

How to deal with the bitterness of love 101

How to deal with the bitterness of love 101

                Actually, I’m not doing this entry because of the bitterness that I’m feeling right now. I’m doing this just because I want to. Anyways, there is such thing that I noticed when you are in love. Don’t think that I’m some kind of cupid and what the hell do I know! I’m just a 15 year old girl, NBSB and fell in love with a jerk. This blog entry maybe will be regrettable. I really don’t know where to start because I can feel that there can be lots of things running through this. Ayyy! Okay let’s start.