The End of My Start (Part 1)

It’s been a long time since I last made a blog entry. I guess I’m really having a hard time collecting my thoughts again unless there is something big that happened. Writing is an introspective activity, and really, with this schedule and stress, I don’t have any time to think about my thoughts about certain things in my life. Well now, I took a break from that craziness and pessimism.

But hey, I’m still visiting this site, well at least to reread about my past entries. And I gotta say that it was a mess. I’d like to say AMEN in every single entry. Well maybe I’m just too young for a blog that time, but it was also hilarious at the same time, I was able to look back at the confused side, the happy side, the typo-error, and even the broken side of me (yuck!) But this time around, I would like to give emphasis on what had happened to my COLLEGE life (yes! Mature na ako kidding)

 

I have to say that it was a mess too.  I finally achieved my highest level of stress in my life. It was not awesome to feel that way. I’m young, and I feel the need to enjoy whatever kind of life I’m through, but it was just so frustrating that everything starts to fall apart.

 

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT COLLEGE?

There are lots of changes that happened to me when I became a college student. I guess my experiences for the first month can write a novel already, but it was kinda a pessimist novel. Haha. So anyway, I’m still looking forward that everything will be okay, for the next few months. Mid-term is about to come, I’m so nervous it seems like I haven’t learn anything only half kidding. Anyway…

My favourite novel has always been The Perks of Being a Wallflower, since I can see the situation of the main character, Charlie as my very own situation. We’re not so alike actually, not the family situation. IT is the way Charlie thinks. And now with my recent experiences, I was relying to what happened to the novel, where he was able to find friends in the end.

But anyway, since it is not happening yet to me, I just became interested with this quote:

“We can’t choose where we came from, but we can choose where we go from there”- The Perks of Being a Wallflower

FACING THE TRUTH THAT YOU’RE IN COLLEGE

I guess, it is really hard for everyone to accept that now you’re in college, now you’re this mature lady/men, big girl/boy ka na and few years from now, you’ll be working, build your own family. There will be no more happy-go-lucky moments (if ever you don’t want your grades to suffer), and you need to face a serious kind of studying, sleepless nights and dead serious conversations.

But I’m going to admit that until now, my mind is still not yet in college. I can feel that I’m still that spoiled little 12 year old girl, just ignoring her homework and making lousy decisions at school (well no one can blame me for that hihi). I didn’t feel like I actually graduated. I thought it is just a program at school that passed by (huhu my gosh I’m suffering here) so it really is difficult for me to truly accept that I’m now in college, that I’m just a few steps away from the boring serious life of adults. Huhu (thunder na ako haha ayoko pa!)

So anyway, why am I doing this entry? It is because I want to list down some things to keep you alive happy in college (and these are also the things I’m hoping I can do in college lol).

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YEAR 2014!!!

THANK GOD FOR ANOTHER YEAR

Phewww. Another year passed by. Bye 2013. We’re now going to take it to another level, and yes that is 2014. But before that of course we have to thank God and take a look back on the memories that we’ve made. Maybe lots of us are really promised to make this year better. Of course everyone is looking for that. But what else are we dying for? Well that’s the implementation.

Nobody wants to make the same mistakes before. That’s always the whole thought. There are lots of resolutions that we’re going to make again so here goes on how to make it a reality, for the benefit of you and even myself.

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MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTION (and probably yours too)

INSECURITIES

INSECURITIES

            We’ve always gone through for so many insecurities in life. Of course, in the reality of life, it always starts with the big things because we can literally see them. And we want them. We need them because you can feel such imperfection in your life without them.

            However, due to this kind of thinking, we never thought of something else other than that. It’s either we get obsess or we’re going to stuck ourselves in a life we always not wanted to be. But you cannot even imagine that you have a choice

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WAYS ON HOW TO DEAL WITH PEOPLE WHO BRAG 101

Ways on how to deal with people who brag 101

            I’m actually having a very hard time especially when it comes to adapting. I’m snob, I’m going to admit it but if I really found you annoying, well I really found you. I’m not going to talk to you or to like you since I really don’t like you. Anyway, there is this man who’s really a bragger. He’s actually very annoying ‘coz he boast a lot and I think that is not appropriate anymore. So here comes with this guy where I really do have a difficult time to deal with. Actually, the first time that we met was OK. We talked a lot and I also thought that he had a crush on me, joke! He’s actually always there for me whenever I struggle but here comes a time that I came to know his personality and it’s really disappointing because I really expected a lot from him not on crush actually. So now that I’m having a hard time dealing with this guy, I thought of something. I thought of the ways on how to deal with people who brag A LOT. So here it goes.

EXPECTATIONS

EXPECTATIONS

             

             Every human has their own expectations. It fuel ourselves and pursue to the dream you wanted to be. It opens us to a life where you started in just a dream and ended up with reality.

             

            However, if we didn’t succeed with our expectations, it’ll cripple us. They will pull you down until you fall. Therefore, if you have expectations, you’re on the brink of something. There are only two options, to fall down, or go to the safer way behind you, where you need to go back and give up.

           
               Motives also let us expect so they are also the biggest liars in life, especially in love. If we let ourselves be eaten by the motives that can give us happiness, you’re totally jeopardizing yourself into something that is not in the good outcome. Motives may come up into two, they like you or not.

Wanna be hurt?

The Pain

            If you are going to visit all my entry blogs in the blog archive, you can notice that almost all of my entries are dramatic. It’s really dramatic. I don’t know why. Maybe because it is true that teenage years are the parts where almost all of us get confuse. We’re confused about love, family, and friends. But that is just my introduction it is not about the topic that I trying to go through. Hihi I’m such a dork.

            Sometimes, we just want to be hurt. We want to hurt our body physically, emotionally and mentally just because we want to experience how does it feel and how you can overcome it. Of course, most of us don’t want to be hurt. We always want to be happy but remember, you’re not going to experience what happiness is if you’re not going to experience how it feels to be sad. That’s a cliché already all of us know but it is really important.

Happiness!!

HAPPINESS

            To be true, I’m really happy now. It is not because of the fact that there is something wrong that happened to my enemy. No! Absolutely not! I’m just happy because I’m in love.

            I know that I already told this a long time ago. But this one is not because I stole someone from somebody. NO! God let this happened and I’m so happy that I was able to found him.

Jounalism camp : New adventures and discovery

Journalism camp:  New adventures and discovery

                        Actually, I’d gone for journalism camp. It was really fun. At first I thought it’s going to be super boring and annoying but I’m wrong. It was total fun and satisfaction. I’m super happy and now I’m going to share to you what I’ve learned as a high school student in our journalism camp.

HOW NOT TO KILL YOURSELF DUE TO HATRED 101

How not to kill yourself due to hatred 101

               

This is just a little bit something for the things that I experienced recently.

LOVE AND HATRED CAN BE THE MOST RISKY FEELING. Both of them are actually related. Why? "The moment people come to know love, they run the risk of carrying hate”. We all know that all the people in this world are experiencing love, from families, to friends, to their special someone. But when we lose one of these people, you can’t even say NO that you’ve never been angry to them because they left you. You can’t deny, maybe you can deny with other people but you can’t deny it with yourself. Of course when you hate, you’re going to have almost all the negative attitudes that are possible. So how was it? How to prevent it? Not to say prevent but how not to kill yourself due to hatred.