THINGS THAT I REALIZED WHEN DIDN’T PASS THE UPCAT

THINGS THAT I REALIZED WHEN DIDN’T PASS THE UPCAT

     

       UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES COLLEGE ADMISSION TEST OR UPCAT IS ONE OF THE MOST DIFFICULT COLLEGE ENTRANCE EXAMS IN THE PHILIPPINES. FRANKLY, I’M REALLY TOO DESPERATE TO GO TO A UP CAMPUS (WELL I’M A LITTLE BIT MORE DESPERATE TO GO TO ATENEO BUT I DIDN’T TAKE THE TEST HIHI BECAUSE I’M LATE) ESPECIALLY AT DILIMAN SINCE I WAS IN FIRST YEAR BECAUSE THAT IS WHERE GOOD COURSES COULD BE FOUND. BUT NOW THAT I DIDN’T PASS (EVEN AT LOS BANOS), IT REALLY MAKES ME FRUSTRATED, NOT BECAUSE I DIDN’T PASS BUT BECAUSE I REALIZED THAT I DIDN’T STUDIED WELL IN HIGH SCHOOL.

            AS YOU ALL KNOW, THE EXAM PROPER ITSELF, THE UPCAT WILL BE 60% OF YOUR UPCAT GRADE OR UPG AND THE 40% WILL BE YOUR HIGH SCHOOL GRADES ESPECIALLY IN ENGLISH, MATHEMATICS AND SCIENCE SINCE FIRST YEAR TO THIRD YEAR. BUT SINCE I HAVEN’T KNOWN THIS THING EARLIER, I WASN’T ABLE TO MAKE GOOD GRADES IN MY PAST YEARS. I’M NOT BRAGGING BUT I’M PRETTY CONFIDENT WITH THE EXAM, BUT LIKE MY PROBLEM EVEN BEFORE, MY HIGH SCHOOL GRADES ARE TOO LOW. OF COURSE IN MY LEVEL, I CAN’T MAKE MY UPCAT EXAM AVERAGE FROM 85% AND ABOVE BECAUSE IT’S PRETTY DIFFICULT, BUT ACTUALLY, MY HIGH SCHOOL GRADES CAN PULL IT UP A BIT. BUT SINCE THAT MY GRADES ARE NOT THAT HIGH, I GUESS I WON’T HAVE ANY CHANCE, LIKE I THOUGHT EVEN BEFORE I START REVIEWING.

And now there are things that make me frustrated, and those are REGRETS.

            And now, regrets in what?

INSECURITIES

INSECURITIES

            We’ve always gone through for so many insecurities in life. Of course, in the reality of life, it always starts with the big things because we can literally see them. And we want them. We need them because you can feel such imperfection in your life without them.

            However, due to this kind of thinking, we never thought of something else other than that. It’s either we get obsess or we’re going to stuck ourselves in a life we always not wanted to be. But you cannot even imagine that you have a choice

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WAYS ON HOW TO DEAL WITH PEOPLE WHO BRAG 101

Ways on how to deal with people who brag 101

            I’m actually having a very hard time especially when it comes to adapting. I’m snob, I’m going to admit it but if I really found you annoying, well I really found you. I’m not going to talk to you or to like you since I really don’t like you. Anyway, there is this man who’s really a bragger. He’s actually very annoying ‘coz he boast a lot and I think that is not appropriate anymore. So here comes with this guy where I really do have a difficult time to deal with. Actually, the first time that we met was OK. We talked a lot and I also thought that he had a crush on me, joke! He’s actually always there for me whenever I struggle but here comes a time that I came to know his personality and it’s really disappointing because I really expected a lot from him not on crush actually. So now that I’m having a hard time dealing with this guy, I thought of something. I thought of the ways on how to deal with people who brag A LOT. So here it goes.

HIDDEN FEELINGS

HIDDEN FEELINGS

            Protecting your own feelings from being known, leaving all those motives behind is an attitude that is not very considerable. You hover from the brink of something. You left someone with a huge question on her mind.

            On the other hand, you’re also asking to yourself question why? Why are you too afraid to say that you want him, that you really want to be with him?

            People are getting afraid to say what they feel since they’re scared to feel the kind of shame. Hence, they are now just stealing the happiness by imagining things which aren’t considerable and far from reality.

            Once people come to know love, they try to find it the way they wanted to, the way where their command will be on their own, where no one wanted someone to hinder their way in getting the love that they wanted.

            However, due to this kind of thinking, people will indirectly unveil that the love that they are wanting is forced. The love that they want to have is not real, but it is just because they wanted to be with someone who he knows he can face to his parents, to his friends due to high profile and money.

            Many people today think that they need to find love, but they didn’t know that love is the one who’s going to find them, that love will be the on the right place, at the right time.

            However, some feelings are just wasted since they are covered with piles of blocks. They didn’t want to let the person that they wanted to know what they truly feel.

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EXPECTATIONS

EXPECTATIONS

             

             Every human has their own expectations. It fuel ourselves and pursue to the dream you wanted to be. It opens us to a life where you started in just a dream and ended up with reality.

             

            However, if we didn’t succeed with our expectations, it’ll cripple us. They will pull you down until you fall. Therefore, if you have expectations, you’re on the brink of something. There are only two options, to fall down, or go to the safer way behind you, where you need to go back and give up.

           
               Motives also let us expect so they are also the biggest liars in life, especially in love. If we let ourselves be eaten by the motives that can give us happiness, you’re totally jeopardizing yourself into something that is not in the good outcome. Motives may come up into two, they like you or not.

Wanna be hurt?

The Pain

            If you are going to visit all my entry blogs in the blog archive, you can notice that almost all of my entries are dramatic. It’s really dramatic. I don’t know why. Maybe because it is true that teenage years are the parts where almost all of us get confuse. We’re confused about love, family, and friends. But that is just my introduction it is not about the topic that I trying to go through. Hihi I’m such a dork.

            Sometimes, we just want to be hurt. We want to hurt our body physically, emotionally and mentally just because we want to experience how does it feel and how you can overcome it. Of course, most of us don’t want to be hurt. We always want to be happy but remember, you’re not going to experience what happiness is if you’re not going to experience how it feels to be sad. That’s a cliché already all of us know but it is really important.

Journaism Part Two

JOURNALLISM PART 2: DIVISION SCHOOL PRESS CONFERENCE

DSPC is one of the most prestigious and difficult contest in Journalism. It’s really difficult to get in for the Regional School Press Conference. But I’ve been a super blessed person. I was able to enter and of course, that is a thing and he’s also there :D. The goos thing about that is that I was able to stay to my happiness. As you all know, I already have my happiness and I never thought that it is going to be at journalism so I’m so lucky. If I just know that journalism is going to be super happy like that, maybe I won’t quit back when I was in second year.

            My September was a very great month. He came, I was also able to forget, got rid of all the bitterness in my heart. But the maybe, of course there is an exchange for my slot for RSPC. My happiness in September did not talk to me. He did not even approached me and give a congratulations. It sucks you know because we always used to talk back when it was training only but he did not. I even approached me in the first day but he just gave a “boast smile”. This part made me very sad but you know, we’re going to be on the same training anyway so let’s see if he’s going to approach me. Anyway…

            At first I thought my life is as miserable as hell. I really hate my life because I’m not really blessed. Actually, I’m very worried about what will happen to me at DSPC. I don’t know if my October is going to be as blessed also.

Happiness!!

HAPPINESS

            To be true, I’m really happy now. It is not because of the fact that there is something wrong that happened to my enemy. No! Absolutely not! I’m just happy because I’m in love.

            I know that I already told this a long time ago. But this one is not because I stole someone from somebody. NO! God let this happened and I’m so happy that I was able to found him.

Jounalism camp : New adventures and discovery

Journalism camp:  New adventures and discovery

                        Actually, I’d gone for journalism camp. It was really fun. At first I thought it’s going to be super boring and annoying but I’m wrong. It was total fun and satisfaction. I’m super happy and now I’m going to share to you what I’ve learned as a high school student in our journalism camp.

At Last! I'm Blessed

At last! I’m blessed

            I’m going to admit, I’m not really contented with my life before. I really want to have things like that or this, but now it is just now that I’ve got my biggest blessing and lessons. I really prayed to God to help me feel this satisfaction in life. It is difficult to me maybe because I’m a part of a broken family and that made me feel sad but now, at least now, I realized something. Finally!

            You know that this last August 3 and 4 is the schedule of the University of the Philippines College Admission Test or the UPCAT. I felt so nervous of course because I really want to study in that prestigious school. After the exam, I’m worried if ever I’m going to pass the exam but I realized. I realized this.

            When I’m texting one of my classmates (who also took the exam on the same day and that is August 3) he asked me what I did, how time pressure killed us then he said, almost all his answers are based on his own theory. Then I typed this one, “Now I realized that it is not always important to just use your brain during that exam, you need to use your heart and the power of prayer in answering the questions.” You know what, I’m shocked. I was appalled by what I said. It was like God let me realize that He is always there for me, whenever I need him. At first actually, I’m very worried because I don’t know if I’m going to pass that test (there are approx. 84 000 people who took the exam and because of that, the cut-off will be higher) but after that, I realized that it is just okay if I’m going to pass or not. I realized that I should be happy because I realized something. I also gained lots of self-confidence. I learned how to believe in myself. You need to trust yourself in order to make yourself satisfied.

 I also realized how important people to me, those people who supported me in the exam (to my father though he’s not there he still sent me his support and to my mother who accompanied and waited me for 5 hours), it is just that I feel so blessed that there are always there for me whenever I need them (huhu I’m crying now), though they are separated, their love and care for me are inseparable and that made me feel so happy, so blessed.

Lastly, I made a stronger bond with God. I prayed a lot, not just before exam, but even months before the exam and even during the exam. I felt him so much and I’m so blessed. I’m so happy that he helped me and he continues to help me. What am I feeling now? I feel so happy and contented now, though I don’t have enough clothes or money to buy what I want. I feel the way I need to feel. I feel so blessed. Now I’m blessed and that is the lesson I learned from the UPCAT.

Be True, ALWAYS- Ricka Mae

HOW NOT TO KILL YOURSELF DUE TO HATRED 101

How not to kill yourself due to hatred 101

               

This is just a little bit something for the things that I experienced recently.

LOVE AND HATRED CAN BE THE MOST RISKY FEELING. Both of them are actually related. Why? "The moment people come to know love, they run the risk of carrying hate”. We all know that all the people in this world are experiencing love, from families, to friends, to their special someone. But when we lose one of these people, you can’t even say NO that you’ve never been angry to them because they left you. You can’t deny, maybe you can deny with other people but you can’t deny it with yourself. Of course when you hate, you’re going to have almost all the negative attitudes that are possible. So how was it? How to prevent it? Not to say prevent but how not to kill yourself due to hatred.

How to deal with the bitterness of love 101

How to deal with the bitterness of love 101

                Actually, I’m not doing this entry because of the bitterness that I’m feeling right now. I’m doing this just because I want to. Anyways, there is such thing that I noticed when you are in love. Don’t think that I’m some kind of cupid and what the hell do I know! I’m just a 15 year old girl, NBSB and fell in love with a jerk. This blog entry maybe will be regrettable. I really don’t know where to start because I can feel that there can be lots of things running through this. Ayyy! Okay let’s start.

Being Single

                                                                               

Being Single

                I can say that being single is one of the toughest thing you’ll ever encounter today. You’re going to wonder how this feel does. What will you feel if someone is texting you from morning to afternoon ‘till past midnight. You’re going to see lots of couples in your campus and feel a little bit of shame for yourself because you have none. Well all I can say is: That is OKAY.

                Being at the last year of being high school and at the age 15, I'm not feeling so alone because I don’t have a boyfriend. Remember, you’re so young. Though some people are going to say that the reason why you don’t have boyfriend is because you’re ugly, NO YOU’RE ABSOLUTELY NOT. It is just that, it is not the right time for you. There are still other chances like when you were in college or when you’re working already. And one thing is you need to enjoy high school. There are some circumstances that you need to face when you had a boyfriend during these years. I’m not doing this because I’m bitter because I also don’t have boyfriend. NO. I’m writing down this because I can see something in here that can brighten up the days of single people and  even the one in a relationship.  So now I’m going to share to you the advantage of being single.

NO DISTRACTION

                                                           

                Well this is the first one I guess since you have more time to concentrate well on your studies and think about your future well. Since you’re going to study in college, you need to pick the profession you want to explore. Remember that college will be your future so no distraction will be great.

                Sometimes I really envy those people who are able to be in a relationship and excel well at school. I think time management is very important.

NO ANOTHER PROBLEM

                One thing also is it is less to your problem. Sometimes you have to problem about this or about that. You need to find time being together OR you need to treat her in the finest restaurant you know OR you need to buy another couple ring (this of is usually the problems of men).

SAVING MONEY

                                    

                            

This is true. When you’re not in a relationship you can save well. (It depends also if you’re not thrifty then you can’t save). When you have money, you can buy lots of stuff for yourself (it depends also if you’re super rich kid).

And last but not the least…

FRIENDS

                You have more time to make friends and I guess you’d be happier. (I guess I’m being bitter hihihi.) I mean what was the purpose of being in a relationship if you can’t make enough laughs and happy memories with them, right? And another thing is friends won’t leave you. Whenever you roll on the corridor (where WE actually did and YES we are crazy), whenever you trip in front of many people, or when you look crazy dancing in front of everyone. There will be NO TURN OFFS. You can be yourself. I’m actually thinking that if ever I’m going to have a bf, probably I’m still going to do those things even in front of him ‘coz you know some of them hide themselves in a very enclosed shell to make them feel like they are a decent person but I think that’s not right. You need to be who you are. As long as there are friends who can understand your weirdness that’s okay. Friend relationship is one of the most important things you need to have during your school days.

I guess that’s enough for now. See yah.

-          Be true always, RM