At Last! I'm Blessed

At last! I’m blessed

            I’m going to admit, I’m not really contented with my life before. I really want to have things like that or this, but now it is just now that I’ve got my biggest blessing and lessons. I really prayed to God to help me feel this satisfaction in life. It is difficult to me maybe because I’m a part of a broken family and that made me feel sad but now, at least now, I realized something. Finally!

            You know that this last August 3 and 4 is the schedule of the University of the Philippines College Admission Test or the UPCAT. I felt so nervous of course because I really want to study in that prestigious school. After the exam, I’m worried if ever I’m going to pass the exam but I realized. I realized this.

            When I’m texting one of my classmates (who also took the exam on the same day and that is August 3) he asked me what I did, how time pressure killed us then he said, almost all his answers are based on his own theory. Then I typed this one, “Now I realized that it is not always important to just use your brain during that exam, you need to use your heart and the power of prayer in answering the questions.” You know what, I’m shocked. I was appalled by what I said. It was like God let me realize that He is always there for me, whenever I need him. At first actually, I’m very worried because I don’t know if I’m going to pass that test (there are approx. 84 000 people who took the exam and because of that, the cut-off will be higher) but after that, I realized that it is just okay if I’m going to pass or not. I realized that I should be happy because I realized something. I also gained lots of self-confidence. I learned how to believe in myself. You need to trust yourself in order to make yourself satisfied.

 I also realized how important people to me, those people who supported me in the exam (to my father though he’s not there he still sent me his support and to my mother who accompanied and waited me for 5 hours), it is just that I feel so blessed that there are always there for me whenever I need them (huhu I’m crying now), though they are separated, their love and care for me are inseparable and that made me feel so happy, so blessed.

Lastly, I made a stronger bond with God. I prayed a lot, not just before exam, but even months before the exam and even during the exam. I felt him so much and I’m so blessed. I’m so happy that he helped me and he continues to help me. What am I feeling now? I feel so happy and contented now, though I don’t have enough clothes or money to buy what I want. I feel the way I need to feel. I feel so blessed. Now I’m blessed and that is the lesson I learned from the UPCAT.

Be True, ALWAYS- Ricka Mae

HOW NOT TO KILL YOURSELF DUE TO HATRED 101

How not to kill yourself due to hatred 101

               

This is just a little bit something for the things that I experienced recently.

LOVE AND HATRED CAN BE THE MOST RISKY FEELING. Both of them are actually related. Why? "The moment people come to know love, they run the risk of carrying hate”. We all know that all the people in this world are experiencing love, from families, to friends, to their special someone. But when we lose one of these people, you can’t even say NO that you’ve never been angry to them because they left you. You can’t deny, maybe you can deny with other people but you can’t deny it with yourself. Of course when you hate, you’re going to have almost all the negative attitudes that are possible. So how was it? How to prevent it? Not to say prevent but how not to kill yourself due to hatred.

How to deal with the bitterness of love 101

How to deal with the bitterness of love 101

                Actually, I’m not doing this entry because of the bitterness that I’m feeling right now. I’m doing this just because I want to. Anyways, there is such thing that I noticed when you are in love. Don’t think that I’m some kind of cupid and what the hell do I know! I’m just a 15 year old girl, NBSB and fell in love with a jerk. This blog entry maybe will be regrettable. I really don’t know where to start because I can feel that there can be lots of things running through this. Ayyy! Okay let’s start.

Being Single

                                                                               

Being Single

                I can say that being single is one of the toughest thing you’ll ever encounter today. You’re going to wonder how this feel does. What will you feel if someone is texting you from morning to afternoon ‘till past midnight. You’re going to see lots of couples in your campus and feel a little bit of shame for yourself because you have none. Well all I can say is: That is OKAY.

                Being at the last year of being high school and at the age 15, I'm not feeling so alone because I don’t have a boyfriend. Remember, you’re so young. Though some people are going to say that the reason why you don’t have boyfriend is because you’re ugly, NO YOU’RE ABSOLUTELY NOT. It is just that, it is not the right time for you. There are still other chances like when you were in college or when you’re working already. And one thing is you need to enjoy high school. There are some circumstances that you need to face when you had a boyfriend during these years. I’m not doing this because I’m bitter because I also don’t have boyfriend. NO. I’m writing down this because I can see something in here that can brighten up the days of single people and  even the one in a relationship.  So now I’m going to share to you the advantage of being single.

NO DISTRACTION

                                                           

                Well this is the first one I guess since you have more time to concentrate well on your studies and think about your future well. Since you’re going to study in college, you need to pick the profession you want to explore. Remember that college will be your future so no distraction will be great.

                Sometimes I really envy those people who are able to be in a relationship and excel well at school. I think time management is very important.

NO ANOTHER PROBLEM

                One thing also is it is less to your problem. Sometimes you have to problem about this or about that. You need to find time being together OR you need to treat her in the finest restaurant you know OR you need to buy another couple ring (this of is usually the problems of men).

SAVING MONEY

                                    

                            

This is true. When you’re not in a relationship you can save well. (It depends also if you’re not thrifty then you can’t save). When you have money, you can buy lots of stuff for yourself (it depends also if you’re super rich kid).

And last but not the least…

FRIENDS

                You have more time to make friends and I guess you’d be happier. (I guess I’m being bitter hihihi.) I mean what was the purpose of being in a relationship if you can’t make enough laughs and happy memories with them, right? And another thing is friends won’t leave you. Whenever you roll on the corridor (where WE actually did and YES we are crazy), whenever you trip in front of many people, or when you look crazy dancing in front of everyone. There will be NO TURN OFFS. You can be yourself. I’m actually thinking that if ever I’m going to have a bf, probably I’m still going to do those things even in front of him ‘coz you know some of them hide themselves in a very enclosed shell to make them feel like they are a decent person but I think that’s not right. You need to be who you are. As long as there are friends who can understand your weirdness that’s okay. Friend relationship is one of the most important things you need to have during your school days.

I guess that’s enough for now. See yah.

-          Be true always, RM